Be Boujee

Most of the time they use the word stuck up.

I’m saying

I’m Boujee

I’m going to stay that way

and you should too.

But let’s get it straight 100.

I’m not saying be mean, arrogant, selfish, obnoxious or unkind.

I’m far from that but I can be.

I’m saying

That I’m going to be boujee

I’m going to eat my plant based diet.

I’m going to read strange books.

I’m going to dream big and stay focused.

I’m going to walk in the park and drink my programmed water.

I’m going to stay fringe and I love it.

I love me and the only one I’m changing for is me.

So, bitch be boujee but be nice because people want you to change to make themselves

feel comfortable.

Conform

Conform

Conform

I know who I’m

Be you

What’s good

 

 

SO

So

You thought you knew me?

What you know about me?

Cuz you know what you know so you think you know me?

Did I tell you?

Were you there with me?

I thought about it

bleach

and a tube full of water

Just to make it all stop

Stop feeling

Judging

Because if I chose to be here I can choose something else

Come back and do something else

Just like that

Reborn

But I probably have to do this again

Take Time

I never thought that I was moving too fast.

If anything I thought that I was moving too slow or that things weren’t moving fast enough.

I thought that I couldn’t stop.

That if I stopped it would be the end of the world.

We get so caught up in our goals.

I got to take time for myself.

To listen to that still small voice. (LOL)

Telling me that it ok. That life doesn’t need to be this big rush to get to the finish line, which is death. (How sad is that?)

I’m learning to embrace the now.

Live now.

Create memories now.

I feel so new.

Like this was ment for me.

Rough Patch

Why is it that strangers embrace me as one?

Respect me.

Love me.

Look up to me.

Why?

But I can never get that same love and respect from my family.

It’s Strange.

I guess it starts here.

Abandoning everything that I once upon a time thought I wanted.

Transforming yourself is quit a process of introspection and release.

 

 

Intruder

When you purposefully insert yourself into someone’s life that you really know nothing about.

And you do this blanket coverage of I care, when in reality you don’t. It just entertains you to disrupt that person’s emotional state.

You’re sick and have no life.

Let me break it down to you like this.

And it may be too straightforward, but it has to be addressed or this cycle of thinking is going to continue as ok and it’s not ok.

I would never call or let a lone communicate with your rapist. Or even try to help your rapist out in anyway.

They wouldn’t have my number.

We wouldn’t talk.

Nun of that.

And if I was talking to your rapist more than I talk to you what does that say about the nature of our relationship? Basically there is no relationship between you and I.

But the difference between you and I is I would never talk to your rapist no matter the nature of our relationship.

And this is just the difference between knowing who’s here to really help. And who’s too dumb to know that they are a hindrance. You my be saying to yourself “I’m just passing a message”, in an instagative nonchalant tone.

But again I would never be in communication with your rapist.

Number one I have respect for your privacy.

Number two I have respect for other women and you.

Not only do I have respect for other women.

Number three I have respect for myself.

And this type of indirect emotional abuse needs to stop. Let people heal. Let people try and figure it out. You don’t need to know everything or think you know what’s best. Everyone’s journey is different. I just wouldn’t assume that my point of view is the ultimate point of view. I’m just so grateful to be able to reflect on the thing that I learned and better myself.

I just left the past and it’s feelings, right where there at. I’ll forgive and move on but I’ll never forget and I’ll keep you at a distance too. I bless you.